I’m Tired of Thinking About What Others Will Say
And other thoughts that led me to Substack
Just days before Christmas 2022…
I turned off all the lights in the kitchen, shut the house down for the night, quickly walked down the hallway to my room, and jumped into the bed where my husband was surely doing some important interweb scrolling.
With an intense unsettledness, I poured out my thoughts that started brewing earlier in the day, “I’m so unsatisfied with whatever is going on here. There’s absolutely no way I can go through 2023 like this. Whatever God has been doing within me, I can’t keep it tucked in these four walls any longer.”
Even more than being tired of this ongoing conversation with myself about what others will say if I were to be more open and honest in some of these conversations I’ve been holding back on, I’m tired of doubting the story God has been writing in me will have an impact.
Over the last eight years, I’ve written about single motherhood, money struggles, and hard times.
But it’s been a real struggle to create the space to dig into the intimate journey God has taken me on within the four walls of my home. As vulnerable of a space it is to share, it’s the one consistent thread I’ve known.
Honestly, it’s the one thread that means the most.
And I’ve decided to write about it here, on Substack.
Maybe this, or pieces of this, will be a book or a podcast one day. Perhaps it won’t. Maybe no one will care. Or better yet, maybe my mom and dad wind up being my only and most favored, subscribers.
Whatever the case, 2023 is the year I’ll stop playing it safe with my writing. I’m going to stop doubting the adventure and write the story.
If you’re on my email list from CassieRajewich.com…
I’ve added you here. But by all means, don’t feel obligated to stay.
Some of you are dear friends, while others signed up for a freebie and others have perhaps been too kind to hit “unsubscribe”.
Regardless, this Substack newsletter will be a reflection of my thoughts on this life journey I’m braving thus far, the wild antics going on around me, and sparked conversations as I people here and there.
And really (a step beyond all the above mentioned) this newsletter is the oh-so-intimate and vulnerable “laying down” of what God is doing within the walls of my heart and home as I navigate this big world and the steps he’s laid out before me.
It’s been well over twenty-five years since that weird day (that sparked it all) in an apartment on Goshen Ave, in Visalia California, that literally changed the course of my life.
And I’m excited to begin the process of unpacking it all, here, with you.
*P.S. I’m not an editor 😉. I write. If any of my poor grammar bothers you enough that it sparks a deep desire within to edit my work for free - send me a message.